"Time's A Wastin"

What if the larva said that it didn't want grow anymore? Or, what if the caterpillar was okay being just that? If that were to happen, it would be a shame. It's no different than one not further developing themselves to become who they were meant to be. The process of going from one stage to another is somewhat difficult already without resisting the transformation. We all have dreams and desires that we ask for earnestly with our hearts, but don't always want to do what's necessary to achieve them. It hurts to see people with so much potential do absolutely nothing with it. I have a destiny. That, I know. But in order to achieve it, I have to do what I have never done before. Albert Einstein states that Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. Each stage of growth includes some initial discomfort and struggle. I know what it is I should do, have to do to make it to the next level. The question is,"Am I willing to do what it takes to get there?". Not taking that chance is not an option. I've taken this journey with a mission.  It's time to keep moving on.

Time's a wastin... 

"Appletree"

For the past few years I have been secretly examining my relationships with people I used to know well, who I have come to know, and how they interact with each other and myself. People from high school, from the neighborhood, your family, from team sports, etc.  It is interesting to see how life can either pull you closer or further away from someone you knew very well or hardly at all. I've had relationships to slowly fall apart due to certain circumstances. Distance and time has played a part in some of those. I'd like to rekindle a few of them because I believe that those particular relationships are worth keeping. Although, doing so with a few may be detremental for my well being. At the same time, I have developed a few relationships that I believe are going to be around for a while. Some of which have replaced the previous ones that had faded. I've noticed that the majority of the relationships that I have and don't have now are because of the development of myself and the path that I've chosen to take. I've changed. So, my environment had to change as well. So did the people I associated with. At times I wish that I could bring some of the people from my past with me on my journey, even though I know I shouldn't and/or can't. It is true that people come into your life for a reason and for a season. As I've analyzed my experiences with people, I have realized why certain people had to leave and why certain ones stayed in my life. I believe one should do a check on the people they associate with or classify as "friends". They tell a whole lot about "you". "Friends" shouldn't HAPPEN to you. You shouldn't get into a position where you don't even know HOW you became friends with someone. They should be a choice and conscious effort. Just like Ms. Badu said, "I picks my friends like I pick my fruit. My ganny told me that when I was only a youth." The people I have in my life now are there because I chose them to be there. I am thankful for them for even tolorating me. ;) At the end of the day, God and your relationship with people are THE MOST IMPORTANT thing...period. So, just stop and think about that everytime you come in contact with an old classmate, or a cousin, or a good friend from college...Just a thought!!

"Out my mind, Just in time"

Hello world. This will officially be the first post on this blog. If you don't know, it took a lot to get to this point. Over the past few years since I've been in Memphis, I've experienced quite a lot in my life. I'm not really a "writer" or "journalist" or anything like that. I just have things in my head that I really need to get out from time to time. You'd be surprised how much space it takes up. I found out by way of conversation that other people think about the very same things. So, this is gonna be an online journal, of some sorts. Lately, my mind has been flooded with many thoughts and questions: Where I am going concerning my careers in art and music? Why am I REALLY in Memphis? I NEED MONEY! How can people be SO simple-minded? I'm so BLESSED! Why do people act like they can "get over" on me? I LOVE MUSIC! Can I REALLY do this music/design thing? Man, she's REALLY UGLY.......(on the inside). You know stuff like that. This is only the beginning. I would really like to get feedback from each post. So, please don't hesitate to leave a response whether you agree, disagree, are concerned, unconcerned.......(Actually, I would have a problem with that...) Either way, let me know something.